This piece sells for $400 and I say Laura earns every penny. Fantastic!
Me? I really felt off yesterday, still do and I'm not sure why. I feel like something is brewing below the surface and I can't quite put my finger on it yet. I know lots of people have trouble with post holiday season let-down, but we are so low-key about the holidays, it doesn't really feel like that. Some people have seasonal sadness but I haven't in the past, not until March or April, when I get sick of the cold and snow.
The closest I can come is that I feel very unfulfilled at the day job lately. That ebbs and flows, like anything else. Besides my insurmountable workload (like everyone else there), morale is pretty low.
I think it was Joan who asked recently if people at work appreciate the effort I put into the cards I make for everyone to sign for various events. It's something I'd been thinking about on my own before she even asked it - but I worried it was my ego talking. But I think that thing has run it's course, as things do.
Both of the cards I made recently - for the widow of the employee that passed away recently and for the top engineer whose last day is today - were signed by something like 11 people - out of 60 or so. The thing is, I used to pass the card around, in a folder with a list of employees - cross your name off and pass it on. But I finally got sick of tracking down the card so the more recent plan has been to leave the card on the table in the mail room and let people come to the card. (I email the office to let them know it's there.) People just don't make the effort.
I had already decided to take a break from the Birthday Brownies this year. I've done this before - stopped when it ceased to be fun.
I'm not mad about any of this, I'm just not interested in doing it anymore. Part of my brain worries that now I'm contributing to the low morale - but since both of these things have gotten to be non-things, I don't think it will make a difference to anyone. It just no longer interests me.
The other thing that's bothering me is I think I need to put myself on a news moratorium. This has happened before, where news affects me too deeply or something. And man, if the bad news isn't enough to make someone sad these days, when is it?
The thing is usually I can turn any of the negatives into positive energy for myself. But now I'm just feeling worn out by everything. Which really pisses me off because I usually really love the first of the year - clean slate, fresh start, new goals - love that stuff.
Wow. Do I know how to bring down a room or what?? Sorry about that. This too shall pass..
I do have one positive note - I worked on some Valentine's Day designs last night. That got my juices flowing nicely. My goal is to have 25 Valentine's Day cards posted in my Etsy shop soon.